The Motion of E

Emotion: the motion of "E"
What is "e"?
What is in motion?
Lately it is the rapid misfiring of synapses causing
sadness to drench my cheeks,
jealousy to shackle me to self-pity,
anger to burn my skin from the inside out.

Laughter's tickle is too gentle these days
At times it tugs at my pant leg.
Shadowed by melanchol"E"
I do not appreciate the moment.
In the night's silence, I lay down in a bed of regret.

The motion of feelings swirl around
Ravaging stability.
"E" is a paradox
With determination to live in positivity.
To accomplish such a life
I delve deep into the stacks of other's ideas, suggestions, perceptions.

I am not lost I have realized
I just have an inconsistent grasp of the wheel,
So the motion of "E" moves fast, slow, stalls, crashes.
Frustration is loud,
Pedestrians feel the thump as me and "E" drive by.
It is rare these days that someone asks for a ride.
Who can blame them,
The vibe of "E" is discomforting.

So emotion can be defined as the motion of "E".
"E" is abstract
I have come to believe,
Which allows for change in motion and gravity.
While tragedy may have put my "E" in a frenzy,
Effort and time, I am certain, will convert its energy.